Outing with the G.A.N.G

Start of with a group picture with our usual gang......haha......We went to Sri Hartamas for Korean BBQ as I always nag, LOL, finally we r there for our d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s food. Damn satisfy after all :) Hope our friendship can last forever :)

15/8/2009

It's been so long that I didnt update my blog. I'm so lazy, I know that :( Hmm, life has been ok, got a job- a job that I m longing to, a job that I enjoy(even I dont get a lot of money from it), but I smile when I work:)

I always thought that friendship is something long lasting, something that I really put it deep down my heart, and yet, when I leave a country, things changed...somehow, my heart ache. Perhaps, I m no longer the one she needs. I always think that we will be BFF untill the day we r not breathing anymore, but....... distance makes it far and far......I am sad in this moment....cause I m losing the one that I always thought one of the best friends in the world :(


Comes to love..... I see things with a broader sight....Perhaps, I really think that love is...........when it ends, it really means nothing at all. So, why dont we make ourselves happy and not to dwell on the past....... life is really short, aint it?


I have so much feeling now yet I do not know how to write all my feeling in this moment. i am numb, maybe..... It is so scary when I see ones changes quickly and I seem like I do not know her anymore yet I was so close so close with ones before.......

I will be fine, I will find a way out...........

feeling so not right

Thanks for the concern from the previous post. I wasnt trying to make anyone worry :) What is done is done, what it meant to be it meant to be, and last what is past is past. So, I should learn how to see things in different ways:)

I've been very emotional these days. Do not know what hit me lately, maybe the falshbacks of my past hurts me badly or maybe something in me doesnt feel right these days. If u ask me how long will this stay, I would say I dont know:) A 22 years old girl like me shouldnt b like that right? sigh :(

该放下的我会放下
然而回忆不断浮现在我的脑海中
我似乎被回忆驾奴着我
好了, 我该往前看....


I will figure my way out, dont push me to hard, bear with me and support me..
That is what u can do :)
I hope u understand I do not want things to be like that
I want things to be right so that we could walk further
I want promises to become true in the future
I want something that suppose to be dissapear, dissapear
I dont wanna deal with it anymore
Apologize is necessary
but say it when u really mean it :)

I had a bad day... a bad bad day....
Everyone cries.....
Heart broken into pieces, yet what can I do?
Love is not demand.....
I never had this feeling before......
I thought u have changed....
I thought u have realized what u have done it isnt work....
I hope u understand why I don't like to be home...
I really wish that I could love u like the way before..but it doesnt work....

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I really hate those hypocrite....really really....
It surrouds me.......
U may look down on me, u may think I do not do anything
but pls mind ur own business
I aint doing nothing...
I just want to organize my life and give myself some time to heal myself
Dont judges a person with how many A they have in their life...
Dont judges how much money they have in their bank....
Ask them are they really happy with what they have rather than all the shit that u have in ur brain....
Dont be so sick...dont be so sick....

new e -shop

My new e-shop is now OPEN...please feel free to visit http://www.u-closet.blogspot.com

Hmm.... Been really busy with my e-shop, but everything seems going OK, so i guess that will be it and wish me luck everyone:)

my recent life

U might find this picture familiar, cause i stole it from my sister's site. Anyway, who cares? I simply find this picture sweet which represent my feeling now :)

I am pretty stressed up these days. Maybe, I am getting used to the freedom I had in the US. I am not really getting used to tell people where to go, what to do, be home earlier, dont spend too much, etc. I used to depend on my own, so I dont need to worry about how much phone calls I made, how my parents would feel when they see the gigantic payment, or how everyone feels about what I did or do. However, life changed, I think I should just adjust my life and also my own thoughts. I really love being ME which means do whatever I want. Somehow, I am stubborn like a cow(according to the bf) and sometimes drive ppl nuts but I think this is the way it is. LOL.

I have been watching a lot of movies these days with my bf. Here is the list
1. fast and furious 4
2.basic love
3.my bloody valentine
4.knowing
5.taken
6.knowing
7.the international
8. 12 rounds

and more but this is what within these two weeks. First of all, Fast and Furious is freaking freaking packed. I've never seen so many FULL HOUSE before on weekdays somemore extra screening at 2am and also selling fast at that time. However, the movie is so so but the actors is damn sexy hot ass. LOL. Basic love sucks to the max cause there is only 5 of us in the cinema. Story is damn bored and during the movie I was actually just playing around with my boy. My bloody Valentine is GOOD. It is a horror movie so be ready for it. There is few scene that freak me out. Knowing is pretty good. Worth to watch it too. Taken and 12 rounds are very very good. U gotta watch it. There is no such a scene that will bored u . The international is real suck, so stay away from it.

I have been hanging out with my boy a lot lately. It is really happy to hang out with him, talking shit and laughing out loud. When I am streesed, he try to make me laugh. When I am sad, he pinch on my face saying that :"it's ok, u will be fine babe." All I wanna say is thank you babe :)

Besides , my e-shop is coming soon. Feel free to drop by when u wanna buy something.
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A short post

I was reading on ppl's blogs in a very freaking boring afternoon and I found this very meaningful to me and I decided to copy it down and share with everyone who is reading my blog:

**life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right and forget the one who don't
Believe that everything happens for a reason
If you get a chance, take it
If it change your life, let it
Nobody said that it'd be easy
They just promised it would be worth it
Do it and never regret of not doing it later**

For some reason, it touches my heart everytime i read this. It gives me the power to walk through my sadness...