Let's start a little bit of something here.....
It seems like my life is going smooth for now, so I am appreaciate and I love my busy life now... I feel myself no longer a person who has nothing to do.... It seems like something pops up that make me realize that I shouldnt be so stupid anymore, should get myself a life rather than standing at the same place over and over again...

Something striking me, I guess, it's the time for me to think, to make an evaluation to it....
As I always say, when it ends, let it be, it means nth to me at all .

Tuition seems giving me a motivation , giving me a chance to take back the books that I hate when I was young, it's good ,isnt it? You cant imagine how much I miss my teens life, the life that everyone was naive....

I once heard someone said that, grab the time now and do what u like because you will never come back to the time that you want anymore, untill now, I only understand the importance of it.... but nth gonna change the fact right? live my life now :)

To be honest, I dont see Love as big part of my life now as things change after some time right? It doesnt mean that I m not in a relationship now or I am very sad with my bf, it's just, it is just it, we still have lots of things to do besides love..... sometimes, I feel envy with those who can love bravely :) I wish I have the courage .....

I believe I always longing to something. It's just it's not the time to reveal...... it depends on time i guess, I will have my better life

go on liwen

a tearful post

It's been a while :) Well, suddenly feel like reading all my old posts that I blogged :( My tears rolling, not crying :) I thought about many things, flashback flashback .....

It's been almost a year that he gone far :( I miss him dearly,do u know? We used to celebrate all the festivals together, and you used to ask me "HOW ARE YOU LIWEN ? " every morning, I miss how u tease me, how u care me, and how u hug me everytime I leave the country..I miss u uncle Ken...if there were chances for me to go back to the past, I would like to go back to the past while u were still there...I would appreaciate u like a diamond, I swear :) but the fact is u r gone too far that I couldnt catch u , so how? did u say that u wanna wait for me to graduate? did u say that u wanna see me marry in the future? I wish to dream u sometimes, i just wanna know if u r fine in the other world...and I would tell u how much I miss u ......

Things been different, I put down the grudge, I treated him nicely...cause I believe he deserves chances.... I saw some improvement, I saw a closer gap btw us.Well, it takes time....

I'm starting to learn how to appreaciate, I thank everything I had or I have... thank god for giving me all these, it is more than enough, I really think that is enough:) thank u .....for last, I would like everyone to pray for uncle Ken for a better life in the other end of the world, I believe, we will meet again .....

Outing with the G.A.N.G

Start of with a group picture with our usual gang......haha......We went to Sri Hartamas for Korean BBQ as I always nag, LOL, finally we r there for our d-e-l-i-c-i-o-u-s food. Damn satisfy after all :) Hope our friendship can last forever :)

15/8/2009

It's been so long that I didnt update my blog. I'm so lazy, I know that :( Hmm, life has been ok, got a job- a job that I m longing to, a job that I enjoy(even I dont get a lot of money from it), but I smile when I work:)

I always thought that friendship is something long lasting, something that I really put it deep down my heart, and yet, when I leave a country, things changed...somehow, my heart ache. Perhaps, I m no longer the one she needs. I always think that we will be BFF untill the day we r not breathing anymore, but....... distance makes it far and far......I am sad in this moment....cause I m losing the one that I always thought one of the best friends in the world :(


Comes to love..... I see things with a broader sight....Perhaps, I really think that love is...........when it ends, it really means nothing at all. So, why dont we make ourselves happy and not to dwell on the past....... life is really short, aint it?


I have so much feeling now yet I do not know how to write all my feeling in this moment. i am numb, maybe..... It is so scary when I see ones changes quickly and I seem like I do not know her anymore yet I was so close so close with ones before.......

I will be fine, I will find a way out...........

feeling so not right

Thanks for the concern from the previous post. I wasnt trying to make anyone worry :) What is done is done, what it meant to be it meant to be, and last what is past is past. So, I should learn how to see things in different ways:)

I've been very emotional these days. Do not know what hit me lately, maybe the falshbacks of my past hurts me badly or maybe something in me doesnt feel right these days. If u ask me how long will this stay, I would say I dont know:) A 22 years old girl like me shouldnt b like that right? sigh :(

该放下的我会放下
然而回忆不断浮现在我的脑海中
我似乎被回忆驾奴着我
好了, 我该往前看....


I will figure my way out, dont push me to hard, bear with me and support me..
That is what u can do :)
I hope u understand I do not want things to be like that
I want things to be right so that we could walk further
I want promises to become true in the future
I want something that suppose to be dissapear, dissapear
I dont wanna deal with it anymore
Apologize is necessary
but say it when u really mean it :)

I had a bad day... a bad bad day....
Everyone cries.....
Heart broken into pieces, yet what can I do?
Love is not demand.....
I never had this feeling before......
I thought u have changed....
I thought u have realized what u have done it isnt work....
I hope u understand why I don't like to be home...
I really wish that I could love u like the way before..but it doesnt work....

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I really hate those hypocrite....really really....
It surrouds me.......
U may look down on me, u may think I do not do anything
but pls mind ur own business
I aint doing nothing...
I just want to organize my life and give myself some time to heal myself
Dont judges a person with how many A they have in their life...
Dont judges how much money they have in their bank....
Ask them are they really happy with what they have rather than all the shit that u have in ur brain....
Dont be so sick...dont be so sick....

new e -shop

My new e-shop is now OPEN...please feel free to visit http://www.u-closet.blogspot.com

Hmm.... Been really busy with my e-shop, but everything seems going OK, so i guess that will be it and wish me luck everyone:)